One thing I’ve always hated are the obligatory “sorry I haven’t posted in a while” posts that every sporadic blog seems to have. This won’t be one of them.

There comes a point in your life where you realize the limits of your talent. God gives talent, but he can also give us the perception to see the limit of that talent. One day, you wake up and realize that limit. It can keep you from frustration and spinning your wheels fruitlessly, but it can also be a very hard thing to accept.

For a very long time, I wanted nothing more than to be a writer. This blog was one of the ways I tried to follow that. But simply put, I’m tired of slamming my head up against the wall and getting nowhere. There’s something to be said for perseverance, but there’s also something to be said for knowing when to pack it in.

I don’t feel that in the long run, I can keep this blog up with the sort of quality I want from it. A lot of that is just realizing the limits of my own talent. Some of it is personal/family-related, but ultimately I’d rather do no blog at all than a poor one. This isn’t spur-of-the-moment, and I’ve taken the time to think it over. But I’m tired of trying to mold my life on a dream that isn’t going to happen. Too much frustration, too much mediocrity, and too much time put into it all. My family deserves more than that, and maybe in the end, I do, too.

I’ll be doing some articles up through Gen Con Indy, in large part because I have a number of obligations I need to meet, including another year of liveblogging Gen Con (I have to think that will continue in some form, somewhere, for a while yet). Once that’s over, I’ll either be stepping aside or fading into the background, possibly as a minor contributor with another blogger taking over day-to-day things. I still plan to be involved in a few online communities, as well as with RPG Circus, so that won’t stop. There may be other projects, but I don’t just don’t know.

We still have a while before the road ends, but I wanted to tell you now. Thanks for reading, and I hope you join me for the rest of the trip, wherever that leads. So many of you have been so kind, I can’t begin to thank you enough for what your words of encouragement have meant. I wish that alone was enough to give you quality content, but at the end of the day, it just isn’t there.

Sorry I haven’t posted anything in a while. I have been so busy with school and work. But in my spare time I have been working on my Megan Fox sim. I am pretty happy with her so far. But just a little more tweeking. Any suggestions?!?!?

I don’t even want to get started with oh im so sorry i haven’t posted here blabla. I realized its just a blog and im doing it for my own fun (so if i have time then i will update more etc). Anyway.. i think ill start with saying im in such stress. Its pretty serious, im having terrible pains in my chest, strangest appetites (yesterday I was eating icecream with pepperoni & tuna – that’s seriously wtf??), I don’t have any energy to do stuff (feeling exhausted all the time and just wanting to sleep), I used to be a happy and smiley person – I haven’t felt like that for god knows how long plus the list goes on. Im not writing this to get some sympathy or anything like it, but just talking (writing at moment) helps me feel bit better. Im thinking about going to see a doctor about it, maybe there is something they can do to help me! That’s all im talking about it now (and no I don’t want to talk about the cause of my stress).
In a bit happier note, its amazing weather outside (+28 degrees and rising). Tomorrow & day after tomorrow, im having days off (I could use more of those to be honest). Lets hope it will be sunny so I could maybe sunbath & wash my car finally (its been dirty since.. winter, so you could imagine how awful it might look).